I cum estrogel
vidéo, son, environ 11 minutes, 2021
video, sound, ca. 11 minutes, 2021

My life got into a whole performance and it starts everyday again: shaving my beard is a performance, doing make up is a performance, walking in the streets is a performance. Then I went deeper, I take Testojunkie as a performative instruction. I get hormons of a friend, who has some extra. Every night, before I go to sleep, I melt testo-blockers under my tongue, I rub estrogel into my skin. I observe the movement of my estro ejaculations on my body. I observe the movement of my fingers, spreading it all over – I observe it through the camera of my smartphone. It‘s wet, cold and sleek. my skin, my screen. It‘s porn I consume before I go to sleep. It‘s a ritual, a circulation: desires, frustration, affection, aversion, imagination, fact, needs, satisfaction, disgust ...